Silent Child  / Linda S. (Friend of your Gramsey )

Silent Child
by Kelly Lancor

 
My silent child
our precious baby,
Close to my heart
I'll keep you with me.
An important job
God has for you,
There is love to give,
and work to do.

He needs an angel
strong but small,
To shine light on many
and give love to all.
Before you go
I give you this,
half my heart
and one last kiss.

We'll miss you dearly
that we know,
But by God you were
chosen,
So to heaven, you must go

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Sunshine / Lana (Aunt)
You were the sunshine of our lives, your radiance was so overwhelming.  You could enter a room and the whole room would turn in awe to see such beauty...  you were an angel all along just sent to us for a while to brighten our lives... now your memory floods our thoughts so often and we remember our plans and wishes for you... they were not to come true though, God had bigger plans for you.  How I miss you sometimes, and wish there had been more time... but God knew best, as hard as it is sometimes to accept, he saw your future and knew you could not handle the evil in this world, so he called you home and left us with the precious memories of times spent with you... No one can ever take your place in my heart, you took my love with you when you left, you were my shadow sometimes from the time you were a tiny tot til you became a grown up teenager, I could turn really fast and run right into you face to face and we would just laugh about it.... and to spend your Saturday with an old lady (me) watching Lifetime TV and eating left overs and popcorn, that took a special kind of kid!!! You were so special to me! My love to you always and forever! Close

SATURDAY YOU WOULD HAVE GRADUATED  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)
MY CHILD, WHAT WOULD WE HAVE DONE AFTER YOUR GRADUATION SATURDAY?? WE CAN ONLY IMAGINE. YOUR NAME WAS AT THE BEGINNING OF THE CEREMONY. SOME WILL NEVER FORGET YOU. HOW COULD THEY?  GRAMS IS REALLY HAVING A HARD TIME LIVING AND GOD WILL NOT JUST LET YOU DIE. I HAVE BEEN DEAD SINCE THAT COLD DAY IN DECEMBER 2004. I CANNOT RUN, CRY ENOUGH, PRAY ENOUGH, ATTEMPT TO HIDE, SCREAM ALOUD,OR IN SILENCE IN MY HEAD,THERE IS NO LAUGHTER IN MY  SOUL, NOTHING KEEPS MY GRIEF OF BEING WITHOUT YOU SUCH A DEEP PAINFUL LOST IN MY SOUL. I SPENT TIME WITH YOU SATURDAY. THE REST OF SATURDAY I WAS ALONE IN THIS HOUSE AND THE SILENCE WAS ABOUT TO TAKE ME WHERE? SOMEWHERE?? I CAN SMELL YOUR HAIR SEE YOUR BEAUTIFUL SMILE, WITH YOUR PERFECT TEETH, FEEL YOUR NOSE PRESSED AGAINST MINE, WHEN WE WERE GOOFING AROUND, YOUR VOICE IS AN ECHO IN MY HEAD. YOU ARE WITH ME WHEN I USE THE VACUUMCLEANER, BECAUSE, YOU ALWAYS PUT ON MUSIC, SO, YOU COULD LAUGH WHILE I WAS DANCING WITH THE VACUUM CLEANER. I MISS WATCHING SCARY MOVIES WITH YOU AND THEN WE SLEPT WITH A LIGHT ON ALL NIGHT. I MISS HEARING YOU SING WITH YOUR MUSIC IN MY CAR, ME NOT KNOWING WHAT THEY WERE SAYING, AND  YOU KNEW EVERY WORD, I'D TURN IT DOWN AND YOU'D TURN IT UP. YOUR HANDS WERE SO SMALL AND YOUR FINGERS SOOO SOFT. I MISS HEARING YOU SAY " COVER ME UP GRAMSEY" OH, HOW I MISS SHOPPING WITH YOU, I NEVER GO NOW. I SEE YOUR GRAMPA"S FACE JERK WITH EMOTION WHEN HE WATCHES ME CRY MISSING YOU. YOU BROUGHT HIM NEW LIFE WHEN YOU WERE BORN. PLEASE WATCH OVER HIM, KEEP THE WIND BENEATH HIS ARMS, SO HE CAN WALK, AND STAY STRAIGHT AND STRONG FOR US ALL, AS, HE HAS DONE FOR 50 YEARS FOR ME. I LOVE HIM AND I AM WATCHING HIM AGE EVERYDAY SINCE WE LOST YOU. HE HAS BEEN A REAL MAN FOR HIS 75YRS. YOU KNOW MY 66TH BIRTHDAY IS COMING SATURDAY. I CAN ONLY DREAM OF HOW WE WOULD HAVE CELEBRATED IT TOGETHER. GOD TOOK YOU HOME TO HEAVEN BEFORE YOU COULD LIVE A LONG LIFE HERE, BUT, NO MORE PAIN FOR YOU MY BABY GIRL, YOU WILL BE FOREVER YOUNG AND BEAUTIFUL. REST IN PEACE WITH ALL THE OTHER ANGELS. MAYBE SOMETIME , YOU"LL LOOK AND I"LL BE ARRIVING ON THE SHORE TO SEE YOU. YOUR GRAMSEY Close

TODAY HAS BEEN WITH VERY MIXED EMOTIONS HOURLY.  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)
MY LOVE, MY LOVE, IN YOUR LOVING MEMORY,THERE ARE THINGS DEATH CAN NOT SEVER, AGE TEARS & PAINCAN NOT EVER HARM YOU. YOU, THAT WE LOVED,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THERE., BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY, IN OUR HEARTSFOREVER TO STAY. MEMORIES OF OUR MYRTLE BEACH SUMMERS AND THE OTHER SAND-CASTLES WE WOULD HAVE MADE, THE NIGHTLY WALKS ON THE BEACH, VOWING TO ALWAYS RETURN. MY PAIN IS GREAT TODAY, GRAMSEY HAS FOUGHT ALL DAY, TRYING NOT TO WRITE TO YOU TONIGHT. BUT MAY YOU AND GOD FORGIVE ME FOR MY TEARS & PAIN. I AM LIKE A FISH OUT OF WATER. REST IN PEACE MY CHILD, YOUR FRIEND MARI BETH WAS THERE TODAY &LEFT A CROSS WITH HER GRADUATION PICTURE. GOOD NIGHT . WILL BE THERE TOMORROW WITH YOUR GRAND-FATHER. YOUR LONELY GRAMSEY Close

Butterflies / Shirl Jerry Lain's Mom (memory friend )

I wanted to share this poem with you, i don't know why but it gave me comfort and now i see butterflies everywhere. Briana was a very pretty girl, May god bless you through your heartache.

SHMILY~JML

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I know your pain  / Yolanda Rogers, Mom To Anna (Known Only Thru Her Mother's Heart )
Thank you for sharing your precious daughter. While reading your many entries in the guestbook, I was reminded of this prayer: "I make pleasant songs, and weave verses, because my soul longs for You. Even as I speak of Your glorious power, it is Your love my heart desires. So may all my thoughts be sweet before You, because my soul longs for You." Yes, we long and yearn for Heaven. And God Who listens to our prayers and hears our needs has made it even sweeter by placing our daughters there.   Praise be to Him who allows us to share our grief and also His blessed, blessed HOPE.
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I am so sorry  / Carol Carico (none)

I am so very sorry for your loss. Holding you close in thoughts and prayers as we remember your precious Angel Briana . A candle will burn in memory of your angel. I feel your pain as I also have lost a child. My first born son Michael was killed in 2002 by a red light runner. Please know I send all my love and prayers to you.
Love & Hugs
Carol
www.myangelsonmichael.Com

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THE HALLWAY IN MY HOME.  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)
ITS SO DIFFICULT TO WALK IN OUR HOUSE WITH YOUR PICTURES EVERYWHERE. EVERYDAY GRAMS WALKS WITH TUNNEL VISION , HEAD UP OR DOWN, TRYING NOT TO FOCUS ON YOUR PICTURES. THE HALLWAY IS YOUR HALL OF FAME, IT ALWAYS WAS & WILL ALWAYS BE.  YOUR PICTURES HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE SINCE U WERE BORN.  THAT HALLWAY HOLDS A WORLD OF HURT, PAIN, TEARS, SWEET REMEMBERENCES OF YOU & BETTER DAYS.  GOD, HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO MAINTAIN A SENSE OF SANITY WITH HER GONE??? YES, I AM ASKING THAT TODAY. THIS IS A VERY LOST DAY FOR ME, LIKE THE MANY OTHERS I HAVE HAD, SINCE GOD TOOK U HOME. DO I NEED TO GO SET BY YOUR RESTING PLACE? DO I GO LIE DOWN BESIDE U?   WHAT GOD, WOULD U HAVE ME DO? REST IN HEAVENLY PEACE MY LOVE, WHERE YOU CAN NEVER FEEL PAIN AGAIN. YOUR LOVING, LOST GRAMSEY.XO XO RIP Close

Briana's Grave on 18th B'day  / Lana

FOREVER MISSED , FOREVER LOVED!!!!!!

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YOU WOULD BE 18 YRS. OLD TODAY  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)

BRIANA LYNN, WHERE DO I BEGIN? 18 YRS. AGO, I RECEIVED A PHONE CALL THAT YOUR MOTHER WAS IN LABOR WITH YOU, AT METRO HOSPITAL. YOU WERE BORN PREMATURE, BUT YOUR MOTHER WANTED IT THAT WAY. I CAME TO SEE U IN THE NEONATAL UNIT ON A VENTILATOR. I WAS IN MY HOSPITAL SCRUBS, I HAD JUST LEFT WORK. WHEN I GOWNED & GLOVED UP, MY WHOLE BODY WAS SHAKING. I LOOKED AT YOU, SUDDENLY U OPENED YOUR EYES  AND LOOKED AT ME, IWAS KNEELING BESIDE YOUR VENT.  I WAS NEVER THE SAME AFTER THAT. YOU  LOOKED AT ME SO MANY TIMES THRU THE GLASS. YOUR FATHER WOULD PUT HIS FINGER IN YOUR SMALL HAND.  I STARTED LIVING AND KNOWING  REAL DEEP LOVE THE DAY U WERE BORN.  U WERE IN THE UNIT FOR A LONG TIME, I WOULD KNEEL, PRAY, AND LOOK AT YOU. ONE OF YOUR NURSES,WAS, A FRIEND OF MINE. SHE TRIED TO REASSURE ME ALL THE TIME THAT, YOU""WOULD PULL THRU THIS & LIVE." BUT NOTHING COULD MAKE ME BELIEVE THAT, UNTIL, YOU FOUGHT BACK, AND GOD GAVE YOU TO US.  GOD CHOSE TO TAKE YOU HOME AFTER GIVING ME 14YRS. OF PURE LOVING PLEASURE  TO HAVE YOU ON THIS EARTH AND IN MY HOME.  WHAT A GIFT//////   YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL FROM THE TIME U CAME IN THIS WORLD AND IT ONLY GOT MORE BEAUTIFUL WITH EACH BIRTHDAY. YOU WERE & R MY SOUL,S COMPANION & THE  REASION  FOR KNOWING WHY GOD MADE ME YOUR GRANDMOTHER. MY LIFE BEGAN THE DAY U WERE BORN. MY LIFE WAS OVER WHEN GOD CALLED YOU HOME 14YRS. AGO YOU WERE BORN ON YOUR GRANDFATHER'S BIRTHDAY.   TODAY HE IS 75 YRS. OLD.     HIS  SILENCE , HIS AGEING, HIS TEMPERMENT, AND  HIS FREQUENT TRIPS TO YOUR RESTING PLACE, TELLS & SHOWS ME HOW MUCH    YOU WERE AND STLL LOVED BY HIM. YOUR SPIRIT IS STILL IN OUR HOME, WE JUST CANNOT TOUCH YOU. THE SILENCE IN THIS HOUSE IS SO LOUD, WITHOUT YOUR LAUGHTER AND ANTICS. ALL TO MYSELF I THINK OF THE THINGS WE USED TO DO, THINGS WE USE TO SAY, PLACES WE WENT.I THINK OF EACH HAPPY, BYGONE DAY, SOMETIMES I SMILE, SOMETIMES A  WAVE COMES OVER ME  AND I CRY, JUST ANYWHERE I AM AT. I CHERISH THOSE 14YRS. WE HAD YOU.  YOU HOLD A PLACE THAT NO ONE CAN EVER FILL. WE SHALL BE LOVED AND REMBERED EVERYDAY UNTIL MY LAST BREATH FOREVER and a day your lonely, loving, grandmother, moravia lynn soltis  alias GRAMSEY

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Loved and Missed Forever  / Lana
Briana, today you would have been 18, what can I say?  I have no words to express what I feel in my heart, you would have been the very light of your family's world!... as you were already!  I would love to have seen you as a young woman, your beauty was so raiant, you could light up any room with your presence and I just pray that you are happy and peaceful and enjoy all the wonderful things that Heaven has to offer. Close

18th BIRTHDAY........04-1-9-2008....  / AUNTIE SHELLE

MY DEAREST PRINCESS PEAPOD......

TODAY IS YOUR 18TH B-DAY AND GRANDPA'S 75TH BIRTHDAY....TWO MILESTONES IN OUR FAMILY........IT IS SO HARD TO ACCEPT THAT YOU ARE NOT HERE WITH US.....WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH......BELIEVE ME BRIANA LYNN.......I HAVE HEARD YOU LOUD AND CLEAR IN MY RECENT DREAMS THAT YOU WERE IN AS WELL AS WHAT YOU TOLD ME VIA REV. MARY........I REALLY DO BELIEVE BECAUSE ABSOLUTELY NO ONE INCLUDING REV MARY HAS/HAD A CLUE ABOUT THAT PERSONAL ISSUE YOU TOLD HER TO TELL ME TO QUIT IGNORING.....IT'S ALMOST A YEAR LATER AND I'M STILL IGNORING IT.....I AM FINALLY STARTING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.......I APPRECIATE YOU LOOKING OVER ME.......

WHAT A PARTY I WOULD HAVE BEEN GIVING YOU TODAY ON YOUR 18TH BIRTHDAY AND IN A FEW MORE WEEKS IT WOULD HAVE BEEN GRADUATION TIME AND A GRADUATION PARTY.......YOU'D PROBABLY EVEN BE GOING WITH ME ON MY CARIBBEAN CRUISE IN JANUARY 2009!!!!!!!!!!!

PRINCESS PEAPOD.........YOU WILL NEVER KNOW/UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU ARE MISSED BY EVERYONE, ESPECIALLY KENNETH JORDAN........I DO SEE THE IMPACT YOU MADE ON HIM IN THE SHORT 6 YEARS HE HAD WITH YOU......MANY THINGS HE SAYS AND DOES ARE YOU AND HOW YOU WERE.........HE MAY NOT REALIZE IT, BUT I SEE AND HEAR IT LOUD AND CLEAR.........

LIFE HAS NOT BEEN RIGHT SINCE 12-21-2004 AND WILL NEVER EVER BE AGAIN FOR ANY OF US...........IT'S 1:10 AM AND HERE I AM TALKING TO MY ANNA-BANANNA......MY PRINCESS PEAPOD.......BANANA-RAMA......I OFTEN LISTEN TO YOUR VOICE ON MY CELL PHONE........IT'S FROM 7/29/2004 WHEN YOU WERE IN WV WITH GRANDMA, GRANDPA & KENNETH JORDAN......I CAN HEAR YOU SAYING HELLO IN THE BACKGROUND........

I WILL BE AT YOUR RESTING PLACE IN A FEW HOURS WITH ALL HE DECORATIONS, CAKE AND SO ON........

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO VERY MUCH BRIANA LYNN..........

XO XO XO

LOVE,

AUNT MICHELLE

 

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Happy Birthday  / Family Of William Myers

Happy Birthday Briana.

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Happy 18th Birthday  / Lana
  Tomorrow is Lori's birthday, she will be 32 and it is depressing her so much.  It seems so unreal to me that you would be 18 in a few days.  Still can't grasp the reality of your being somewhere else, not here!  I think of you everyday, and wish that I could see your smiling face once more.  In my mind and in my heart your will forever be 14, and the sweetest girl on earth to me!.... I know you probably had your moments with your family, but you were always so kind and thoughtful when you were with Lori or me,  and we miss you so much.  I know that you are happy in your new home and I will forever love you my sweet Briana. Close

MISSING YOU  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)

DEAR IS THE GRAVE WHERE OUR DARLING IS LAID,

SWEET IS THE MEMORY THAT NEVER WILL FADE,

HER SMALL SOUL SO PURE AND SWEET,

WILL SURELY BLOSSOM AT OUT OUR SAVIOUR'S FEET. 

GOD KNOWS MY PAIN, I CAN HARDLY LEAVE THE HOUSE, FOR YOU WERE ALWAYS WITH ME.

REST MY BABY GIRL. YOUR LONELY GRAMSEY

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YOUR BIRTHDAY IS FAST APPROACHING  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)
WHAT WOULD I GIVE,YOUR HAND TO CLASP,TO SEE YOUR SMILE, AS THE DAYS THAT USED TO BE.DEEP IN MY HEART YOU'LL ALWAYS STAY TILL I BREATHE NO MORE.WE MISS THAT LIGHT OF YOU, EVERY WHERE WE ARE. YOUR VACANT PLACE NONE CAN FILL. YOU ARE EVERY-WHERE. NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THE PAIN OF TRYING TO DESCRIBE THE LOSS OF YOU. YOUR SPIRIT IS EVERYWHERE. DO YOU STILL MAKE THE BUNNY NOSE,THAT ALWAYS MADE ME LAUGH?? MY LOVE, MY LOVE, YOU ARE SO LOVED, BEYOND ANY WORDS CAN EXPLAIN., ONLY GOD KNOWS OUR OUR GRIEF. THE SILENCE IS KILLING US. I ONLY SURVIVE BECAUSE OF THE DAYS THAT USE TO BE. TIME TAKES CARE OF NOTHING. BRIANA LYNN, HOW I LOVE TO SAY YOUR NAME ALOUD, IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY, I WOULD BE WITH YOU NOW. HERE WE MORN,BUT NOT IN VAIN, FOR HOPEFULLY UP IN HEAVEN WE 'LL MEET AGAIN.  GOD HELP ME, I WANT TO SCREAM, LIE IN THE FLOOR, RUN UNTIL THAT TIME AGAIN. GOD HAVE MERCY ON THIS FAMILY. REST IN PEACE MY BABY GIRL. HUGS AND KISSES FOR U ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE. GONE, BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN FOR ONE SECOND OF EVERY MIN. OF EVERY HOUR OF EACH DAY WITHOUT YOU. YOUR GRAMSEY Close

EASTER CAME AND GONE  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)
SLEEP ON MY BELOVED CHILD,SLEEP AND TAKE THY REST. LAY DOWN THY HEAD UPON THY SAVIOR'S BREAST. WE   LOVE YOU SO DEEP BUT I GUESS JESUS LOVES THEE BEST , HE CALLED YOU HOME TO REST. SAD IS THE HEART OF YOUR FAMILY, YET GRAMS IS TRYING TO BE BRAVE AS YOU WOULD WANT ME TO BE. CONSOLED ONLY BY THE THOUGHT OF MEETING YOU ON THE SHORE OF ETERNITY. BUT BRIANA LYNN YOU KNOW I DIED WITH YOU. WHAT WILL GOD HAVE ME DO?/  THERE WILL NEVER BE A FAMILY CIRCLE AGAIN, YOUR SEAT REMAINS EMPTY, BUT YOUR GRAMS KEEPS AWAITING 4 YOU TO COME IN THE DOOR. OH. GOD HELP THIS FAMILY. WE ARE SO LOST. I CRY IN MY SOUL EVEN WHEN I AM SILENT & IN A CROWD. I AM CLUELESS AS TO WHERE I AM IN THIS LONESOME WORLD. BUT 4 U MY CHILD, I'LL KEEP TRYING UNTIL GOD CALLS ME HOME. I AM TIRED, WEARY, ANGRY,ANXIOUS,DEPRESSED, GOD IS AWARE OF THIS. YOU WERE WITH ME IN WEST VIRGINIA, BUT IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE, SMILING & FULL OF JOY & LOVE. THERE CAN NEVER,EVER BE ANOTHER YOU.  YOUR GRAMSEY Close

SOON IT WILL BE EASTER  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)
A LIGHT THAT SHINES TWICE AS BRIGHT,BURNS HALF AS LONG. MY BRIGHT & SHINY LIGHT IS MISSING FROM MY HOME. I THINK OF YOU AND MY LONELY HEART SKIPS A BEAT, BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO. I STRIVE TO BE PREPARED TO MEET YOU IN THE BETTER WORLD ABOVE. GOD TOOK YOU HOME,IT WAS HIS WILL, BUT STILL, HOW CAN I BE LEFT HERE WITHOUT YOU??TIME TAKES CARE OF NOTHING. WHAT DOES GOD WANT ME TO DO?? I SIT HERE & I AM CRYING ,YET NUMB. NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU AND I. NOTHING CAN EVER BREAK THAT TIE. GOD HAVE MERCY ON THIS FAMILY. WE ARE SO LOST. REST IN PEACE MY BABY GIRL, YOU DESERVE THE BEST. YOUR LONELY GRAMSEY XO XO Close

WHEN IS THE SUN GOING TO SHINE ON ME?  / GRAMSEY SOLTIS (GRAMA)
TIME SPEEDS ON,THE YEARS HAVE PASSEDSINCE DEATH BROUGHT ITS GLOOM,TO CAST A SHODOW IN OUR HOME'WHERE ALL SEEMED BRIGHT,AND TOOK FROM US OUR SHINING LIGHT. YOU TUCKED ME IN THE BED THE NIGHT BEFORE HE CAME, WE NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE. IT WAS GOOD NIGHT GRAMSEY, U SLEEP GOOD, WE R GOING SHOPING TOMORROW. I FELT YOUR SPIRIT LEAVE YOUIR BODY WHILE U WERE IN MY HANDS AND I WAS DOING CPR, SCREAMING IN MY HEAD, & DIEING WITH YOU. HOW CAN ANYONE EXPLAIN THAT IN WORDS? QUESTIONS MY FAITH, HAS GOD FORSAKEN ME?? I AM SO TIRED OF STRESS & DRAMA AND TRYING TO LIVE WITHOUT U. THIS FAMILY IS SO SCATTERED.  I HAVE NO ENERGY LEFT TO DEAL WITH IDIOTS. I CANNOT BREATHE OR SLEEP. YOU REST MY BABY, YOU DESERVE IT. TRYING TO PROTECT MY GRAND-SON FROM ALL THE TOXIC PEOPLE IN HIS LIFE. HE CANNOT HELP WHO HIS FATHER IS. GOD DEALT HIM THE HAND. HIS FATHER IS GOING TO PAY A PRICE FOR MENTIONING YOUR NAME. FORGIVE ME GOD, 4 I SURLY HATE HIM.  MISSING U, CRYING,WHY CANNOT GRAMPA aND I BE ALONE, WE DIED THE DAY U LEFT. PEOPLE LOOK AT ME, BUT THEY DO NOT SEE ME..  YOUR GRAMSEY Close

Happy Easter  / Dessa Smith (connected by angels )
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